I’ve met too many people in this industry that really are in the public eye just so people can say to them “we are not worthy”. For the most part it makes me sick until I realize that these people do it deep inside for the same reason as I do. They are doing it to say to the world ‘I mean something’ while I do it to say ‘I want to mean something’ – not that far apart, but i think a big difference.
When we first got our site live (about 9 months now- we just had a baby) I realized that most of the support that I got in the industry… what am I talking about there was no support at all if you don’t count my mom and 3 close friends. I realized that until that day I was Ben the guy that is happy with an award, bonus, being added to portfolios of the major players in the USA, being part of making 3 agencies “agency of the year” while working for them, or just a thank you email from CEO/client/creative. That’s really all I needed. I do still enjoy it. At the same time I realized at some point I want my life to be more than just money and running after fading honors. As fast as they come – they go.
A new Ben has emerged. One that knows his life needs a meaning. One that will affect not only his pocket, but affect the world around him. I want to make a high income; enjoy the goods of this world; as my choices stay stronger than ever. I prefer to change the life of a few people than to run after things that don’t matter. I love interactive programming it brings out some of the best attributes out of people. It’s hard to explain it unless you do it yourself. It’s one of the only jobs in the world that the rewards are greater than any amount of income you can make.
It took a while until I started finding people that had a good vibe. I didn’t want to work with people that were all about money. I wanted to work with people that cared about their users. Wants to help others (I’ve talked with a few of the major web forums most of them were very greedy or they just ignored my emails). That’s where/when I found Kirupa (according to Google the 3rd largest Flash Community on the web ). From my first email to him I found a person on the other end. One that was kind, smart, and very supporting. He wanted to help in anyway he could. He treats his site, his users, and his future partners as a family. I can’t state enough how rare that is. How much admiration I have for this person – no questions asked when people approach me – I’m inspired by him. I would like to be in the same club as his. Where we do things out of love and not out of greed. There are enough Donald Trumps in the world. Not enough people that just want to create a ripple, hope/help others pick it up and continue with it. His support lead to a stronger confidence in myself. That lead – for much of the months to come – to our greatest achievement so far an Adobe ACP (I know I need to put that logo up somewhere, hopefully I will before they take it away ;).
This one goes out to you my friend Kirupa. Looking foreword to working with you in the years to come.